"You're such a fake."
Sometimes, though, I feel like you would say that. Why? Well, just like I shared on Share Your Story Sunday, I feel like a lot of bloggers "stage" our lives on our blogs like we stage our pictures-- only putting out pretty things for people to see. My roommate and I even joke sometimes "If they saw how I really live.." I see tons of bloggers that have gorgeous homes and I wonder, "Do they really live like that?" And then I see other bloggers who post their living rooms with tons of craft stuff all over the place and I breathe a sigh of relief: I'm not the only one! So here's my truth:
1. I graduated from college last May and am still looking for a decent job to pay all of my bills. When I say I'm a "po' kid" I'm not joking. I am blessed, and the Lord has provided for me financially.. and yes, I probably spend too much money on crafts/furniture, but I am broke. Like the rest of "normal" Americans in this economy, I am struggling financially.
2. When I say "roommate" I mean my roommate from college, Crystal. Her family has lovingly taken me in until I get a job that can allow me to get my own place (I'm originally from Florida, so all of my family lives there.. meaning I'm on my own here in Georgia). I typically call Crystal, her mom, and her sisters "roommates" on here because, as a 22 year old, it's kind of embarrassing to say "Crystal's mom."
3. My room also happens to be the living room. And they let me decorate, do my crafts, etc. It gets messy, but I'm thankful.
So.. that's the truth. I say all of this, not to get your sympathy-- I am happy and grateful for where I am now-- but to let you know that not all bloggers have HGTV worthy homes, expensive furniture, etc. I am normal. I do crafts on a budget not for people to say "wow, that's a really inexpensive project" (although that's cool, too!), but because I have to do crafts on a budget. I say this also because I want all of the "normal" people to know that it's okay to be normal. Don't feel like you have to compete with the HGTV homes... sometimes I feel jealous of what they have and that's not healthy. I need to be grateful for where I am and what I do have.
I feel so much better now. And I know now that if I invited you over for coffee and cookies, you wouldn't be surprised by what you see. We'd sit on my cheap, red couch/bed from Craigslist that I bought when I was in college, and put up our feet up on my even cheaper coffee table from Walmart (gasp!).. and we'd talk and laugh about how my couch makeover has a navy blue sheet on it right now because someone spilled hot chocolate all over the cream one haha!
I love you guys, and the support and encouragement I receive from the blogging community is incredible-- especially during this time in my life-- but I don't want you all to like me for someone I'm not. So.. that's me.
Does anyone else in the blogging world feel like this?
UPDATE: I've now moved to a home with a few roommates. Click here to check it out! :)